people i know but have never talked to..

My pre-college years are the years that people have seen me as sombong or pendiam. Somehow or rather, they know me, my name, and I know their name but I have never had conversations with them. This does not only apply to my peers, it also applies to family members.

Through the wonderful social networking tool that is facebook, my niece from my half sister added me up. She is the same age as me (actually she's a whole month older than me to be exact). Its not one of those jejak kasih situations, where I have not met her ever, I have, and I do meet her almost every year since I could remember during Hari Raya. Haven't seen her or that side of the family for a while since It has been 2 Hari Raya's and another coming since I celebrated Raya here in New Zealand. Well the point is that, I have never spoken to her ever in a full conversation, probably an occasional Hari Raya greet, but never a full on conversation. Its probably me, being very shy during those occasions that I do meet them once a year, my nephews and nieces from my half siblings, which I told her should change next time we meet.

There are also ex high school peeps that I haven't spoken to but somehow know who they are. Well probably thats normal, a loser in high school knowing who the cool kids are. But anyways, one of them, Jeng, who I remember Iylia always repeating her name Jeng NurAzrina, (I found that he has that habit of repeating names yang sedap sedap...macam Meqsu Aslina, even before I met her and became me novia hehe..) said hey on facebook chat. She started with hello, and asked immediately "kenal tak?", and I replied, kenal, tapi tak pernah borak. haha. She said it was probably because I was sombong, which is not uncommon, as many of my friends, including my close ones today, says that had a sombong face in high school. I just never gave my face any thought really, never knew people were paying attention to my face. haha

These two situations made me realize that it really was silly of me not conversing with mutual friends, or distant family members, and I know I would never shy away now. I think being away definitely helped me develop that part of me that has always been lacking, the confidence to meet new people and converse with them and hope for further conversations in the future.

Later amigos..